Why I love Nikki and Helen so much and so equally

On so many of the Bad Girls message boards, people are always choosing between Helen Stewart and Nikki Wade. I know some of it has to do simply with whether you are more attracted to the slighter, femme governor or to the tall, dark and handsome soft butch con.

I personally find them both VERY attractive and some of it has nothing to do with their looks. I think I mentioned in another post that I saw a couple of episodes of the show without knowing who was whom and I did not go ga-ga over either of them. But as I got to know them and watched their internal and external struggles, I absolutely fell in love with each of the characters.

The outward (some might say superficial, since you're also talking about the actress who plays the part) reasons to love each of them include Nikki's sultry and sexy voice, her full, very kissable lips, her almost golden eyes which show every emotion she feels, her perfect breasts, and very nice bum. Helen's physical attributes include her very sexy Scottish brogue, her pouty lips, her exquisite hazel eyes, and oh, the cleavage for days.

Okay, so I've gone down that road, I know. But it's still all the love, compassion and respect they exude that makes those things double in my estimation.

The main reason that I love them so much and love them equally is that I can relate to them both.

Nikki Wade is whom I aspire to be (married to her principals; kind in a genuine way; loyal to a fault; totally sure of right and wrong; single-minded in her determination to right any wrongs; well-read and quite witty).

Helen Stewart is the one I am more like (outwardly confident, especially in the area of her job, yet internally insecure; somewhat awkward in certain situations; not wanting to stand out or appear different; yet loving and kind with a great sense of humor).

I cannot gush enough about how well the two actresses, Simone Lahbib and Mandana Jones made Helen and Nikki come to life. I totally believed these two people were in love and would do just abut anything to be together and to better the other's lot in life.

I'm just so glad I finally found the show.

Bit of this and that

I have just posted my first two fanfics on the Bad Girls Enhanced website (http://s1.zetaboards.com/bgenhanced/index/) and the Helen & Nikki message boards ( http://z4.invisionfree.com/Nikki_and_Helen/index.php?act=idx ) and the feedback was overwhelming. The thought of other people reading my stuff was nerve-wracking, but then the positive responses came pouring in and have inspired me to do more. So, I'm starting a couple of new and much longer ones....still Helen and Nikki themed and based on the actual characters from the show, not an AU story, although I'm not opposed to that. But, I'm still finding my voice and practicing the art of writing, so starting with characters that are already so fleshed out is helpful, albeit a short-cut for sure.

I also just started reading Anne Lamott's book on writing, called Bird by Bird and it's great. I recommend it to anyone who wants to get better at writing or start to write.

Related to BG, we are almost at the end of series 7 and have enjoyed some of the story lines, but I have to say, it's almost as if the creators lost interest in their first-born child. Many of the stories feel forced and rushed, as if to just get it in there. It's sad really. And I really have not enjoyed any of the other lesbian couples portrayed since series 3. They are quite dull and not captivating at all (IMO). More later.